Monday, October 20, 2014


This is my 18 year old niece Rania. She died on Monday, October 13, 2014, after a life-long battle with Leukemia.

I am heartbroken.

I'm supposed to be a writer, able to find words, but I'm at a loss as to how to describe all of my emotions coherently.

Angry-So angry
Furious-Want to hit and scream and yell at the top of my lungs
Sad-How can this happen
Devastated-The tears won't stop
Heartbroken-A piece is missing
Unfair-Too young, such a fighter, only child
Why-There is nothing anyone could say that can ever make this okay

My husband took the first flight out to Morocco to be at his sister's side. I can't imagine the pain my sister-in-law must be going through.

All I keep thinking is, she just celebrated her 18th birthday on September 25th. She looked healthy and beautiful and so grown up in her birthday photos.

She was sweet, kind, loving, beautiful, smart and so much more.

I miss her. She is truly missed. Our whole family loved her. Such a precious wonderful girl who grew into a beautiful young woman.

I can't find the words, but I loved her. I am so sorry she is gone.

I can still remember when she was a little girl, sitting in my lap, playing with my hair.

That is all. Thank you for reading.


  1. Jennifer, I'm so sorry for your loss. I've been there. I'm amazed by the joy and the beauty in Rania's face, despite the battle she was fighting. You were truly blessed to have her as a part of your life. You and your family are in my thoughts.

    1. Thank you, Danielle. I feel really lucky to have known her. It's so hard to see someone so young lose their life. I appreciate your kind thoughts and wishes.

  2. Jennifer, I too feel your sorry. At times like these, the best words are those that we can't even begin to express. How sad it is to love this lovely Rania for 18 years and then lose her. It's a true tragedy. Sending you and her family hugs.

    1. Thank you. Words are really hard to come by when something like this happens. I appreciate it. Thanks for reading.