I recently received some really amazing feedback from my
editor on my latest project. Was my MS perfect? No, of course not. But she's
edited three of my books so far, and with this one she noticed a marked
improvement in the quality of my writing. “This is probably the single best
thing about being an editor. Truly. The amount you’ve improved from Sweet
Dreams to Angels in Disguise to this (Sea Breeze, coming this summer) is
amazing.” Yes! She said a lot of other squeal worthy stuff that I’m keeping to
myself, but it made my day…week actually. She sent me her notes and suggested
corrections, and there were really only three places she was asking me to
reword. The rest was adding in some of the dreaded comas. (Lord knows if I’ll
ever figure those suckers out.) It was an incredible feeling. Does loving her comments and sharing them here make me
narcissistic? Hmmm, let’s see…
Narcissistic-have an undue fascination with oneself; vain
No, that’s not it. Her words made me feel good about my work
and progress, but I am not fascinated with myself by any means. Am I being vain?
Vain-excessively proud of or concerned about one’s own
appearance, qualities, achievements, etc.; conceited
No, that’s not it either. I am proud of this achievement, but
in no way conceited about it. I know I still have a long way to go. In fact, I’m
finishing up my self-edits on another full length novel before I send it to said
editor, and now I worry that it won’t be as good as Sea Breeze. Now that I know
I am moving in the right direction with my writing, I’m afraid of
taking two steps forward and one step back. What if, because of the length of this
book, or any other reason, my current WIP isn’t up to that same level of
quality? I want my writing to improve with each book I write, and now I’m
doubting myself. Does that make me insecure? Diffident?
Diffident-lacking confidence in one’s own ability, worth, or
fitness; timid, shy
I do not have a lack of confidence in my worth or
potential, but by no means do I pretend to be an expert on writing. No, I look
for advice from the experts. I want to grow and reach that level someday where
other writers are looking to me for advice, commending me for my style.
I never started writing to become a famous writer. Honestly,
I had a story in me and thought, “Hey, I’m going to write a book,” just to see
if I could do it. It was more of a bucket list goal. But now I’m hooked. Just
as good books hook the reader, I’ve been hooked into writing. I now want that
praise. I want readers to discover my work, to love my work, to recommend my
books to other readers. I want each book I produce to be better than the last. And
I want my last book to be my masterpiece. What does that make me?
Ambitious-eagerly desirous of achieving or obtaining
success, power, wealth, a specific goal, etc.
I do desire the success of achieving the very specific goal
of becoming a better writer. The wealth that can come, if you’re lucky, with
being a best seller someday, or the power that comes with it, is a dream for most
writers. Hey, I won’t deny it would be nice.
Now, I just need to finish my current self-edits and hand
over my new novel to my editor. (Bites fingernail.) I hope it’s good enough.
How do you react to positive feedback? Does it spur you on, or cause you to doubt?
You can find me online at www.jennifersenhajiauthor.com
Sea Breeze is coming this summer. Stay tuned.